Got a Secret, Can You Keep It

If you think I haven't gotten myself into serious drama and verbal messes judging by my thin voice and friendly demeanor, you're wrong. Although this has not been a frequent part of my life (thank goodness), there have definitely been some grandiose fights that have made me who I am today. Most people in these situations try to avoid their enemies, but I disagree completely. Don't get me wrong, no one wants to relive one of their lowest days, including me, but disagreements are what make us who we are and embracing our beliefs and lessons is something that I think is much more important than who said what.

For example, I decided not too long ago that I did not want certain people in my life anymore because I felt that they were giving me more of an annoyance than a friendship. Even though I did not want things to end badly and tried slowly easing my way out of what I called torture traps, the other person was sensing my distance and took it in the worst possible way.

Today, this girl (bitter from my rejection and heated from a lack of closure) still tries to get my attention in the most adolescent ways that I thought she had outgrown. She is still the same disagreeable person that I cannot tolerate as much as I try, but there is something that has changed after our scuffle - my piece of mind. Before, I would get bothered by her careless, rude remarks and unfriendly attitude and spend so much time wishing that our friendship had never begun. But after the friendship took a turn for the worst, I realized that I shouldn't even care. That people who are cruel and heedless don't deserve your attention. That I should be thankful to know that I'm not like her and never will be. So thank you "she-who-will-not-be-named", for your mean comments, your lack of being a good friend, your unpleasantness, and your unbearable company - because without it, I would never have realized what a good friend I think I am, which your desperate acts to get my attention prove.

Now, I live with a clear mind and a wiser judgement towards what real friends are, and I'm lucky to still have many of them.

And I listen to the deep words of Dr. Dre, of course, who once said, "Bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks."

On that note, I'm heading out.

xx