Dear Pacific,

Most people want to be out of school by now. Wait, scratch that: everyone wants to be out of school right now. You see, this is the time of year when facebook feeds are being raped with either status countdowns of the final days of school or the whinings of being in school when summer has already started. Even teachers have become subject to complaints, their frustration becomes evident by their short-tempered class assignments.

Now, don't get me wrong, I have been a part of this worldwide impatiency just as much as the next person. I have had my share of indignant statuses and freshman-through-junioritis. However, I'm starting to think differently about the whole thing and this is why. I see everyone around me wanting to get away from school. They can't wait until that final bell rings and they can jump in their cars, hoping to leave their dull classes and experiences in the grassy-turning-yellow quad. This process that I've been through so many times seems so impractical to me now. People treat school like it serves the purpose of being their ball and chain; if they were free to do what they wanted, they would be so much better off. What they fail to realize is that school is what makes them better, as a person and as a scholar. Without the seemingly hard schedule of three classes a day, we would essentially have nothing to think about or perform. Without the silly grades and timed tests, we would have no motivation for what's out there or direction for where we want to go. Without the lackadaisical days sitting in the quad wishing we were somewhere else, we would be nowhere. It is school, with its admittedly ridiculous policies and stressful atmosphere, that makes us, not us who make the school. So school, even though you've been getting a lot of crap lately about letting us out so late and giving us such a hard time, I just want to let you know that you're not as bad as everyone says you are. Personally, I wouldn't be myself without the Palisades winds that blow my hair in crazy directions everyday and the beachy environment that's intense and laid back at the same time. Admittedly, I'm going to miss you high school - you were the breadbasket from which my energy fed from and when I leave, I'll make sure to always remember that.

Angst.

I've been going through a lot of teenage bullshit recently. You know, flipping out about finals and ap's, overdosing on standardized testing, googling certain colleges over and over again, or locking myself in my room with emo music blastin' - the ush.

Nothing has significantly changed, there's still the same things to worry about with all of the same people. I would be lying to you if I said I don't let it phase me, but I've come up with a thought that I'm trying to follow everyday. Basically, I'm going to take it easy and not fret over the little things that used to drive me crazy, because some things are just not that important. I might still not do as well as I wanted to on a certain test that I was losing sleep over before, but at least I know that I was handling it well and that I gave it all I could. I'm going to picture myself exactly where I want to be until I'm actually there, and I'm not taking any b.s. along the way.

This is now, this is real, this is you. You're never going to get anywhere until you make it happen. If you let nonsense get to you but pretend that you're okay, it'll only result in your downfall. In ten years time, think about where you are going to be. None of the little things are important. You'll forget all about those dumb girls who never had a life and try to intrude yours. Everything insignificant will escape your mind. The only thing you'll have left of your past are the consequences, good and bad.

I say, do what you love and fuck the rest. Go past your expectations and have fun along the way. Make everyone realize all your potential until even you have surprised yourself. And remember, never, ever, walk out the door without flowers on your body and in your heart.

That's all that I have to say.

I'm having fun, don't bring me down

Hey all, I hope everyone had a good three day weekend filled with kickbacks and barbecues, I know I did. I really don't have a purpose for this blog like I do on my other ones, I just felt like it was blogtime; so I think i'll just leave you with a few things I'm excited about: Chanel two-tone tights, No Doubt's new album, SUMMER, starting work at The Getty, and dying my hair - it looks like an orange crayon.

xxxx

ps, it's that little guy's two month birthday today (go lucifer!)